Bit of a personal post today guys. I’m feeling SO down at the moment.
I love blogging. I love everything about the whole process and I literally enjoy it more than anything! But I’m really struggling with confidence in myself and jealousy of the big bloggers. I’m proud of my blog and my social media accounts but I’m finding it so hard to not compare myself to other people. Anyone else do this?
Like, why am I such a perfectionist? I take my photos in my garden with a self-timer on my camera. I have no photographer and no pretty London street to take my photos in – and if I had the choice and the resources to do this I seriously would. I look at the top bloggers and how perfect their photos are and I can’t help but wish my photos were as amazing as that.
Being a relatively new blogger is so hard because trying to get noticed is just impossible. Like, contacting brands to collaborate with and most of them don’t reply because your not a girl with 100,000 followers and haven’t worked with Missguided yet. That constant rejection can’t help but leave me feeling a bit down in confidence, like I’m questioning myself ‘is my blog good enough?’.
Twitter as well is a big thing for bloggers. I created a twitter for my blog earlier this week, and because you’ve got less than 100 followers people assume your a low key blogger and don’t bother to look at your page or give you a lil’ follow. I’m really struggling with people taking me seriously and it’s such a blow! It’s a bit like, unless your Sarah Ashcroft or Lily Melrose then we don’t want to work with you or look at your blog.
Instagram has to come in somewhere too – it’s all about showing the things that are happening in your life and basically it’s just the good things. I look at bloggers going out for lunch and people modelling in London or even over in America and I can’t help think my life is really dull because I’m full of illness and so can’t really do much. Instagram doesn’t show people’s lives, only the fun things they want to show.
I feel like I’m being quite strong and weird but I’m just being honest! Followers aren’t everything too, everyone knows it’s about the content, but lets face it – the more you have the more likely you are to be given opportunities.
Some positives come out of this for me however – any brands who actually are willing to work with me I am SO appreciative of and I spend loads of time thinking of how I can style their things or write about them in the best way I can. I like to think I cherish the little things and am grateful for the opportunities I am given.
Anyone else feeling the envy? Let me know your thoughts in the comments – I’d love to hear what others think about this sort of thing!