Would you believe that I’m actually a really shy girl?
When it comes to anything social, I turn into such a quiet, scared and relatively dull human being. I’ve always been one of those people that ‘comes out of their shell once they get to know you’, and it’s something I’m kinda trying to work on. I haven’t put myself in many social situations in the last year or two, mostly due to my anxiety around travelling (espesh to London, omgggg no), so I haven’t had a chance to get out of my ‘shell’ to anyone new for a while. I miss meeting new people, and because I’m so cooped up in my tiny village I’m getting a little bored of it, but being a fashion blogger isn’t really helping at the moment.
So what has fashion blogging got to do with being shy? Surely it means I’m quite confident? Well, no, I hide behind my clothes. I feel like one of the sole reasons I love fashion is because I can express my feelings and passions through clothing instead of having to say real words. The more I buy clothes, the more I’m hiding behind them and the less I’m thinking about who I am. It’s a bit of a weird cycle, but it’s the only way I really express myself. I think because I write a blog I feel like I’m talking all the time – even though I’m actually not talking at all, am I?
Blog – 1
Social Skills – 0
I really need to get out of my social rut and be confident in myself and my personality, instead of just my exterior. Anyone else?
One of my problems comes from being totally tongue-tied all the time. I constantly word-vomit and mumble my words, and the speed at which I try and talk sometimes resembles the crazy frog (#throwback), and it’s not because I’ve had too many coffees either. Seriously, the other day at work I was on the phone to someone and they asked me to repeat what I had said, but much slower, and I was like omg what is wrong with me?!? When I start ranting/discussing I just cannot stop talking, and it all turns into a big blurry concoction of real and made-up words.
When I wear clothes, someone may ask me where I got something from or say my shoes look nice (that’s only happened once but whatev), but because my clothes are in my comfort zone, I feel totally at ease to have a little chat. Ask me anything else and I’m literally a confused mess.
So, what am I going to do about it?
Other than trying to speak slower (imposs), I think I just need to think before I speak. I need to take time to think about what I want to say, and let my personality just hurl out of me. If I speak too fast, who cares! I need to not let things hold me back from being social, and to speak to people as if they were on the other end of a Whatsapp conversation.
I can still wear my I-like-to-think cool clothes, but let my natural weirdness ooze out of my voice too (instead of being a silent thing in the corner that everyone thinks is a bit of an odd-ball). I think I still care too much about what people think of me, and need to let myself go a bit (*pictures scene of Blair and Serena in Season 1 Gossip Girl when they’re at that photo shoot and Serena teaches Blair how to RAAAWWWRRR at the camera, but I’m literally SO Blair in that situation*).
Dress – New Look
Coat – MEGA old, but found something similar here in the sale!
Bag – New Look
Shoes – Pretty Little Thing
The moral of today’s story is to let your voice be who you are, instead of just your surroundings. I really need to gain some confidence when it comes to being social, so any tips would be fab. Whether it’s make-up, clothes, technology, Whatsapp, ANYTHING, don’t hide behind it my loves because you’re ALL fab!