Winter has always been a tough time for me, with a mixture of the cold weather eating away at my strength and the social aspect of Christmas/my birthday/New Year within a week freaking me out. I left University 3 years ago during the Winter holidays after completing a year and a term, and it was one of the most difficult, but important/life-changing decisions I’ve ever made – it was that Winter that started 3 Winters of anxiety, stress, upset, tiredness and just general exhaustion. I remember back in 2016 I wrote a post about -trying- not to feel like a failure for not finishing my degree (which you can read here) but I’ve always had an inkling that it would come back to bite me in the arse.
Until this year.
This year has finally been the year that I’ve not let my troubles get to me and I’ve kinda let go and said ‘f- you’ to the degree that I didn’t get.
Last month I was approached by BBC Newsbeat to give my opinions on University from the opinion of someone who had left during a course. They had seen on Twitter that obviously I’d been through it all so wanted to ask me some (well, tons) of questions about my life at University, whether I enjoyed it, why I left, and mainly… how I am now. You can read the little snippet of me in the article here, but what really hit home was what I REALLY have achieved since leaving University, without a degree, and without having a clue what I was going to do when I was in such a spiralling, deep hole of stress, anxiety and nothingness.
Part of the article says about how I just couldn’t hack it, and in general I think I said a lot in my interview that I just wasn’t ready for University. I think it goes for a lot of people, I mean, 18 is such a young age to move away from home (not for all, but for some), yet I think so many are pushed into doing so and either go because they’re told to by their school or parents, or want to go to stall time while they’re looking for something they’re truly interested in. I did the latter, and in the end my lack of interest got me a wasted year and a years worth of pointless debt (and nothing to show for it).
But how am I doing without a degree?
FINE! I’m living with my boyfriend in a lovely flat, with two jobs that I adore, neither of which required a degree. I may not be the CEO of a huge company any time soon, but I’m hardworking and I’m damn good on a spreadsheet.
This isn’t a blog post dedicated to the fact that I’m having an amazing life and that you shouldn’t go to University, but I know I’m more of an on-the-job kinda girl, and it does worry me that people are just shoved into University without knowing more about other options. Starting up this blog from scratch is something I’m immensely proud of… even though it took a million Youtube videos and questions that even Google couldn’t give me answers to.
But anyway, not everyone is made for University and never be forced into it if it’s not right for you. You can go at any age and waiting a year won’t hurt you while you find your feet and your real interests (I mean, was I ever going to be interested in a maths degree?).
Cardigan – c/o Boohoo
Top – Missguided (only £4!)
Jeans – New Look
Boots – Dorothy Perkins (in the sale!)
Bag – c/o Boohoo
Scarf – Topshop (old, similar here)
Belt – ASOS (smaller one of two pack)
Let me know your thoughts about University and if you left mid-way like I did – would love to know your opinions!
* c/o shows items gifted for me for the purpose of the post *